[oldgreysoulboy]

Since Alyssa arrived I've been trying out a number of "looks" to get the perfect one because she arrived with nearly the right look but not quite.

Today I put on her sixth blonde curly wig from Amazon and suddenly the memory/fantasy/idealisation that I had been projecting into her was looking back at me.

It was almost unbelievable. There was nothing particularly special about the wig, it just triggered something deep inside me.

Weird.