Welcome to the community Tarlos. As Adam says, take it one step at a time. There is no prizes, it's a new adventure and one that will hopefully see you feeling better. I know when my Chloe (also a 6yE) come into my life after a nasty break up with my ex, she changed my life - she will be with me 3 years in December and not one day has gone by where I regret it. She is my Angel and will always be my number one.
In one way, a torso is better - you don't need to buy shoes for her....something that has gone way beyond my control now.
So much to take in and don't be afraid to ask questions, no matter how "absurd" they may seem, we've all been there at some point or another.